April 19, 2009

April 18, 2009

To: Leo Volont - I hope I have found the right person

I am at an Adoption Party and a little black girl walks up to me, 4 or 5 years old, and wraps her arms around my leg. She sucks her thumb and holds a toy rabbit, too. She calls me mom and will not let go of me.

In the dream I talk to my family about having to go through an acceptance process including therapy and counseling. By the time we get home she is 7 years old. We go to her grandmother’s home and so that I can meet her grandmother. My child is dressed in Sunday clothes so that she can go to church with her grandmother and afterwards we have dinner. She explains that her grandmother needs to teach me how to do her hair so that I can “raise her up right.” (Beauty salons, gossip, fashion shows, etc.) She explains that she is going to be an important leader in her community and I need to get this part of her upbringing right.

The dream skips ahead and she is now in her late teens and has a boyfriend. She tells me that she will be alright and that she has a rich cultural heritage and strong family ties because I made sure that she stayed close to her grandmother.

Throughout the dream, she is disappointed in the way that foster kids are disappointed with life in general. For example, “Oh, you’re taking care of me. Is that what this is called?”

April 17, 2009

April 17, 2009

Day 29
Still tired just not so bad as yesterday. There is still a whole ton of stuff to be packed. As if there is no end in sight ...

April 16, 2009

Day 28
What a day this has been. At least I got to weather it in a chair and not have to run around all day long like I have been earlier in the week. I am looking forward to going home and might set up the tv to record everything and go to bed real early. I am so TIRED.

April 14, 2009

April 14, 2009

Day 26
Still tired. I am probably just worn out emotionally and physically. I am still recovering from bronchitis or pneumonia. I am working real hard at work to get a lot of stuff packed for the move. And just walking into the office is making me very angry.

April 13, 2009

Day 25
I am very tired. Too much sugar? Maybe.


I did a fair amount of dish washing over the weekend. Sean and Nicole might be able to come over next weekend and replace the garbage disposal. I sure hope so. This might help the issues with the dishwasher BUT ... I have some doubts.

April 12, 2009

April 12, 2009

Day 24
Happy Easter!

I am up. I have had coffee. I have had my small bag of malted milk chocolate eggs. My day is complete.

:-)

April 11, 2009

April 11, 2009

Day 23
Today is the Sirrine Reunion in Gilbert. It is also raining in the Valley of the Sun. This happened last year, too. So the family will gather at the roping arena and make a decision from there. They will probably stay there as long as there isn't a lot of rain. I probably should have gone but I just do not feel up to it.


My niece Lacy had a baby girl on April 6th. They named her Chloe. I like that name, very pretty. Last year Lacy carried a baby boy to term and then he died in the womb just before due date. It was rather devastating to the family. So, it is good that they have found the ability to carry on and build their family.

April 10, 2009

April 10, 2009

Day 22
Furlough Day

I get to stay home and NOT get paid. What a wonderful world this is.

My health is steadily gaining strength. However, I am also steadily gaining weight. I have been back on the bike and next week Susie and I plan to start actually walking the dogs again. Hopefully, this will help me not be so tired at the end of the work day. And I will be trying yet another variation of diet. Maybe this time it won't just be another load of crap.

HA!

April 4, 2009

April 2, 2009

Day 14
Rollin' Rollin' Rollin'

Keep moving', movin', movin',
Though they're disapprovin',
Keep them doggies movin' Rawhide!

The office will be moving in the first half of May.

March 31, 2009

Day 12
I think I'll try driving tomorrow. I have not had any episodes of dizziness today. And I have been active standing up and bending over and tipping my head back all of that good dizzy spell inducing stuff.

March 30, 2009

Day 11
What a day this has been. It started with a rush because Susie is driving me to work this week. Then I was really busy at work with old case files that have been waiting for me to get to them. Another secretary was helping me out with a vehicle and the Admin was supposed to help her. BUT . . . around 9:30 I get a call to go get the first secretary but I can't drive right now. So she was stuck at Fleet Services for about an hour or so. She finally got over to the ADOT service yard to pick another vehicle that was ready for pick up. Then Dad called and it sounds like he had a little bit of PTSD going on with an incident that happened on Sunday. So it seems that this had been one mess after another. AUUGGGHHHH!!!!! THIS is the kind of day that makes me want to eat myself into oblivion.